Ive been depressed for a while now and i use to cut myself before , i hate life , and i might start cutting again . I dont know what to do . . . i just .. ... im tired of the other shoe dropping and i just feel like i wanna die . . . . . i hate myself . . . i hate how messed up i am cause of my bad childhood . I was abused when i was little . I can ask my friend to help me cause she dont understand . . .i need help . . .
I was abused before, physically and emotionally, by both of my parents. I temporarily did cutting, but it doesnt really help. Things do get better, but you just have to take it day by day, or even hour by hour. Reward yourself to feel better, keep busy doing work, and you will be able to get by. Eventually these things become easier to get through, and talk about to people you are close to. From one survivor to a future one, I wish you the best of luck friend. :) Remember, there is always at least one person, even if it doesn't feel like it now, who thinks you are special and would truly miss you.
I, too, was abused in childhood. I developed depression and started cutting. I understand why some people choose to cut - it's a way to have some sort of feeling, when all you've tried to do is numb yourself. I think you should consider talking to a counselor about it. I developed depression, and finally saw a counselor and psychiatrist, and found out I needed major help to overcome my childhood trauma (yes, abuse IS TRAUMA). By addressing the root of the problem, you can overcome your feelings of self-hatred and self-injury. Just remember that you're stronger than you realize, and the only way to go from here is up!