I'm in love with two people at the same time and whenever I'm around one of them, I feel like I should be with the other. I've considered what my life would be like in both situations and one is safe, stay in town, continue going to community college, and the other is more rambunctious. I would leave this city and stay in an apartment with him while he goes to UC Davis. I considered staying single and not being with either of them but I can't handle the pleading from either of them anymore, it's literally killing me. I've thought about leaving this town and running away for a little while and whichever one comes and "rescues" me is the right one but I don't know anymore. I hate being the heartbreaker. I don't know what I should do.
You're cruel and selfish. Do not run away. It seems as though you don't deserve either of them and if you can't pick one then you obviously aren't in love with either of them. End both relationships so they can find someone who will appreciate their affection and so you can learn and grow and respect love when you eventually find it.