I've been in love with my male best friend for a couple of years and we are at college together (I'm a year below though, a freshman) we were on holiday a year ago & i confessed my feelings which he didn't share. he didn't want to ruin our friendship because we were so damn close & could trust each other with anything. In the time I secretly didn't stop loving him, he was full of infatuated love for his best friend's girlfriend. He got her in the end but sacrificed so many important friendships for it. They have now broken up. he attempts to talk to me & be friends because he misses it & hopes he can get it back
HOWEVER
Even though I can't help loving him, I don't want him to think he can have my friendship after hurting me and his other best mates so badly. it was selfish and evil.
I think the other reason (apart from 'not ruining out friendship') why he didn't want to be with me romantically might have been because of the 'wanting what you can't have thing' I'm attractive with a good body in honesty, and have a lot going for me. We had such amazing chemistry which loads of girls were jealous of me for (he would lead them on both unconsciously and for his ego)
so the love and lust was there
However, maybe because I spend loads of time talking to him and with him (which he misses) , there was no excitement/infatuation and maybe he thought I was a constant in his life that would always be there?
I want him to want me badly. How shall I do this?
Keeping my distance? Being confident, happy & mysterious? Successful on my own?
He needs to realise what he took for granted.
Advice would be much appreciated as this has been wrecking my mind for 2 long years :( thankyou.